21 DF Day 2: I'm Hangry

Ok so let me start off by saying today was not a good day. Yesterday went MUCH smoother! First of all I didn't get up like up until 8 instead of at 7 like I had planned. I worked a late shift last night and I was tired. When I got up I still felt really asleep and sluggish, so I sat and let myself kind of wake up first before hopping into a work out.

The Workout:
Today for my work out I did the "Upper Fix" workout. It is 30 minutes of weight work that targets your arms, back, and abs. Now I will say that I am QUITE sore from yesterday's total cardio, but I did find that today's workout was a little easier for me. It was more isolated movements so I didn't get out of breath as much. I was actually able to keep up with the other people and didn't have to resort to the easier modified moves.

The Food:
So I have pretty much been totally hangry all day! I NEVER expected for the food portion to be what I struggled with the most. I did eat breakfast this morning which helped a little. I had one scrambled egg (proteins box) and one piece of toast (carbs box). Since I am not really supposed to have like butter and stuff, I just left the toast plain and piled my egg on top of it making like a weird little egg sandwich. I seasoned my egg with just a little garlic powder and a pinch of cheese. For my mid-morning snack I had my Shakeology shake (protein box - vanilla today which I didn't like as well, but I'll explain later) and some raw almonds and cubed cheese (healthy fats box). Now here is where my day got negative. With the portioned eating and workouts that I'm use to, I got a little exhausted I sat on the couch just for a breather and I passed out. I totally slept through lunch! When I did wake up, I had a headache, felt horribly sluggish, and was starving. I filled my entire fruit box to the brim with blueberries and strawberries and devoured them all. I was still hungry! I knew dinner was going to be here soon so I got in the shower to make time go faster, but I could feel my mood totally sinking and felt very irritable because all I really wanted to do was go eat a piece of leftover pizza out of the fridge. For dinner my boyfriend made shrimp and rice (carb and protein boxes). He made his stir fry style, but lovingly made mine separate with with healthier approved seasoning (like no soy sauce). It looked so good and smelled even better! My stomach was growling. I got out my little boxes and when I filled them and poured out the contents onto my plate I literally wanted to cry! It was so little from what I would normally eat. I finished that super fast and quickly made an impromptu salad in my veggies box, but I was still hungry. I HATE not feeling full after a meal and I have felt a hunger all day which has made me feel nauseous and gave me a headache. I'm likely going to fill up another box of fruits here in a minute to see if that will do any help. I did get all of my daily water in today though so yay!

Shakeology:
So today as I said above, I tried the Vanilla shake. It was alright, but not as good as chocolate. At first it was yummy, but the more I drank, I wasn't crazy about it and had to struggle to finish it. I don't like a ton of sweet things and vanilla is sweet. It also did not mask the protein flavor as much as the chocolate.

In conclusion, I have been in a bad mood all day because I have been hungry and haven't felt good at all. I am feeling a little defeated. I am not sure this is the program for me. I can see where it would work well who is looking to do a lot of weight loss, but my goal is more to just turn my pudge into muscle and to look more athletic build than Pillsbury dough boy build. I weigh around 130 so that is what most people doing this kind of thing would hope to have as an ending weight. I'm starting to think that I am not getting enough calories to sustain myself after the hard workouts. I don't know if I am not doing this correctly or what, but I think what I might do if tomorrow does not go better, is to definitely keep up with the workouts, but modify the eating plan. I like how the eating plan is forcing me to eat healthy well rounded meals, but I don't think I should be constantly hungry to the point where I don't feel good. So I might just try a little bit bigger portions of the healthy suggested meals, but still not over eat.

If anyone has, or is currently doing the 21 Day Fix, PLEASE comment below with any pointers or if you has the same issues! Have great night and say a prayer that tomorrow goes easier for me!